Friday, May 27, 2011


Today I went to see our midwife, Rosanna, for a fertility consultation. Not that I have a problem with fertility. Heck, I've managed to get pregnant twice in 5 months! I'd say that's pretty damn good :) However, I seem to have a problem with getting the baby to stick.

It was a great and pretty successful meeting as far as I'm concerned. First off, it totally reinforces our decision to use this midwife. She is really awesome. I get such a great vibe--not hippy dippy at all, just calm, patient and above all practical.

So, here is what I found out:
1. Our current diet is great. We're doing all the right things. Eating lots of eggs, fruits, vegetables and proteins. Although I should cut back on the carbs :( I love carbs.

2. Take Vitamin D supplements. Most people have a Vitamin D deficiency and it's super important for a developing fetus.

3. Take Calcium/Magnesium supplements. Most people don't get enough of that, either.

4. Monitor my blood sugar level with a glucometer. Apparently, when she suggested this, my eyes bugged out a bit. Probably the idea of poking myself with a needle several times a day! I just need to do this for one or two days. We need to see how much my blood sugar level fluctuates. Extreme blood sugar level fluctuations can also cause miscarriages.

Rosanna also lent me some reading material: The course materials for a pregnancy nutrition course and the book Real Food for Mother and Baby-The Fertility Diet, Eating for Two and Baby's First Foods by Nina Planck. I'm really looking forward to going through these this weekend.

Right now, I've got a bright and optimistic outlook for the next few months. I'll read the materials, make some dietary changes if necessary, make sure I'm exercising more regularly (or, you know, at all!) and just enjoy my summer. Then, come August, we should be ready to start again! I'm hoping third time's the charm!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

One Week Later

Ok, so maybe 1 week and a few days later. It's taken a while for me to formulate my thoughts enough to write this out.

One week (+ a few days) ago, I miscarried. I can't believe it's only been a week. It feels so much longer.

Some days, I'm okay. In fact, most days I'm okay. My days are busy--filled with work, planning, spending time with my dogs and Brian. Some days, I'm even great. Sunday was a great day. I spent the day in my bathing suit, in the backyard with my first mojito of the season, reading books and taking naps on a blanket in the sun.

Some days, I'm not okay. Some days, I feel like it can't be real. It was a horrible horrible dream and I'll wake up and still be pregnant. Some days, I forget and think that soon I'll be breaking the news to our parents. I think about how excited they'll be, the look on their faces. I've carefully planned out how we're going to tell them. It's something I'm really looking forward to. Then I remember that it did really happen and it is real. And I won't be breaking any news to them any time soon.

Some days, it's bad. It seems like I see pregnant women everywhere. At the farmer's market and the grocery store. When I'm picking up my students from school. I'll watch an episode of one of my favorite tv shows and they'll be talking about pregnancy or being pregnant or babies (Damn you Gray's Anatomy). And then I'll cry. Because it's not fair. I shouldn't have to do this twice. I shouldn't have to watch and wait for the "tissue to be expelled" (which happened last Sunday). These are not good days.

But mostly, I have good days. These are the days I focus on. These are the days that I think and plan for next time. Next time, I'll take more vitamins. Next time, I'll be more careful. But until next time, I will drink my mojitos. I will eat sushi and raw oysters. I will ride my bike (really, I will!) and go to yoga on Thursday mornings. I will enjoy these next three months. And then we'll start again.